But I’ve also never really had such a fantasy before…I have friends who have thing for guys with porno staches, or wants to sleep with a guy in a tent but, I think my fantasy has gone one step further!
Maybe it was I just found the professor on the show pretty darn attractive that I thought well, if I had a professor like that I wouldn’t be able to control myself.
Maybe it’s the whole untouchable desire…I’ll be the first to admit I LOVE the chase…I always like meeting the guy, flirting (trust me worlds biggest flirt), reeling him in…even the first date excitements…but come the second date and it’s all over!
I like what I can’t have I always want more the next adventure that’s why I have been single for and I quote 3 years! I’ve had a few mini relationship in those 3 years…nothing that lasted! And one of those guys was my manager (company policy did state no fraternization with the mangers...there you go again the untouchable...it make the chase even more exciting!), but can you blame me he had model good looks and a body to rival even Becks…and he had the accent too!
Which is also one of the other flaws in my life...I used to live in London where I only dated models, that probably sounds really stuck up but that’s not how I meant it to come across, it’s just that what our profession was so it’s hard to get out of that bubble. But this has scarred me for life, every guy I now meet who doesn’t have these model looks. I just can’t bring myself to see past the flaws! Not that I’m saying these models didn’t have flaws and they did…good looks and not a lot of personality! But how do I get past my hang-up on looks and stop throwing the perfectly good boys away??
I see this blog has turned into a fantasy desire into the secrets’ of my life….well I’m going to leave you there…the next chapters coming soon!
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